quotes

Jan 11, '11 6:39 PM for everyone

heto iniisip ko ng naghahanap na ako ng tao to fall in love with....

Find someone who is not afraid to admit that they miss you.
Someone who knows that you're not perfect but treats you as you are.
Someone who's biggest fear is losing you.
Someone who says I Love You and mean it.
Lastly, someone you wouldn't mind waking up in the morning, seeing your wrinkles and gray hair but still falls in love with you over and over again.

siguro insecure lang talaga ako  but this is what i really wanted. i can be independent but i also need someone who tells me he needs me because he believes of my worth.

We don't look for love because it's lonely to be watching movies alone, because it's sad to eat meals on your own, because it's nice to cuddle up with someone on rainy days. We look for love because we want to be accepted, for the sloppy ways we dress, for the clumsy way we eat our meals, for bad hair days and for the simplicity in us. Love is an act of acceptance, that with all our imperfections, we are accepted and loved.

...when cris came into my life

I am just thankful that God found me deserving enough to present such a precious gift as your love...but I am even more thankful that I was smart enough to grab a hold and never let go

and this is what i can promise him...

I am nothing special;
just a common woman with common thoughts,
and I've led a common life.
There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten.
But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived:
I've loved another with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough.

hindi naman perfect ang relationship namin. may mga oras din na dumadating ako sa ganitong point...hindi naman sa hindi ko kayang magalit.siguro my love for him has always been bigger above anything else.

sometimes we want to say these to someone...

"you suck. you're an insensitive, inconsiderate, selfish,cruel , thoughtless, mean who don't deserve to be taken cared for by a person like me.

i wish you could just disappear so you couldn't hurt me anymore.

but when we open our mouth to say it, it comes  a little softer like,

"i love you".

 ...kasi nga

You can never really hate or be mad at someone who hurts you unconsciously, because that same person is the one who unconsciously makes you truly happy."

...at natutunan ko na

Don't expect love to always make you feel good. but do expect it to make you grow in ways you never thought you would.

after ten years of our relationship, andito na ako sa stage na eto na alam ko na ang gusto, sasabihin ko at ipaglalaban ko. bukas ako sa maraming posibilidad pero nakahanda naman ako sa kailangang gawin para kung anuman kami sa nakalipas na sampung taon, ganon pa din kami magwawakas.

The best feeling in the world is finally knowing you took a step in the right direction, a step towards the future where everything that you never thought was possible is possible.

....masyadong serious..pachorvah lang...ganito pala ang MU..had i known thirteen years ago...ah,wala lang. kakalokah.

Wag ka masyado mag expect. Wala kayong commitment. Pwede ka mag selos, pwede ka mag tampo pero hindi ka pwedeng magalit. Pwedeng makipag date sa iba pero wag ng magpapaalam. Pwede mo siyang lambingin, pwedeng yakapin at pag nalaman mong may bf/gf na siya, pwede ka umiyak. Pwede ka masaktan pero hindi mo siya pwedeng sumbatan. Dahil wala kang karapatan. Dahil Ang M.U. ay isang MAGULONG USAPAN.."

...hmmm,now i understand.

The hardest person to get over with is the one you never had but made you HAPPY...

(quotes from pinoy exchange thread)

101 reasons why i love you...

Oct 5, '08 3:51 AM

1. I love you because you would often call me and check if I've eaten long before we became on.
2. I love you because you listen to my stories which I retold a hundred times.
3. I love you because you accompany me to CCP even though you find it corny.
4. I love you because I can you ek-ek, eklat, eks and you never mind.
5. I love you because beneath my flaws and imperfection, I will always be your beautiful girl.
6. I love you because you never fail to delight me with your marshmallows and chocolates.
7. I love you because you can keep on talking when I'm not in the mood to speak.
8. I love you because you fix my undies when I just wear it my way.
9. I love you because you are my 22^nd birthday gift.
10. I love you because God gave you to me.
11. I love you because you just amaze with your Bisaya, I mean Ilonggo accent.
12. I love you because you get along well with my family.
13. I love you because you never get tired of scolding me about what I wear, how I talk, what I did and blah, blah, blah.
14. I love you because you are one big, gigantic, man... you got a big heart.
15. I love you because it leaves me worried when you become irritated with my wrong moves.
16. I love you because you made a woman out of me.
17. I love you because you believe that I can always soar high and you the wind beneath my wings
18. I love you because you patiently waited until my 6pm off from work.
19. I love you because you give me reasons to look forward to each morning.
20. I love you because you are the man I dream waiting for me at the altar.
21. I love you because you can just shrug off my “kaartehan and kalandian”.
22. I love you because I feel your excitement when I call you in the morning, at lunchtime, in the afternoon, and at bedtime.
23. I love you because you've learned to accept the fact that I can never like “okra and talong”.
24. I love you because you love all my kaek-ekan. I can be sensitive at times.
25. I love you because you're one great husband and daddy.
26. I love because you pamper me everytime I'm “nsglilihi”.
27. I love you because you are the baby I dream i'll have.
28. I love you because you are my very first, true, endless love.
29. I love you because you are the air that I breathe.
30. I love you because when you're sleeping next to me, I'm complete.
31. I love you because I can stand your presence for days even if you haven't took a bath or brush your teeth.
32. I love you because when I'm with you I can just be myself.
33. I love you because you cuddle me like a baby to prevent me from soaking.
34. I love you because I melt every time you wink.
35. I love you because you send me e-load when I can't immediately reply with your text.
36. I love you because you drive me to excitement with your sweet text messages.
37. I love you because you never to forget to utter me “ingat ka”.
38. I love you because I want to sit beside you in the rocking chair when our hair is graying.
39. I love you because it annoys me scratching your back and yet, I still grant your request.
40. I love you because I want you to be the one whom my children will call “tatay”
41. I love you because I can't resist when you say “isa pa tayo”.
42. I love you because I miss you a minute after we parted ways.
43. I love you because three years after I still feel butterflies in my stomach every time we'll meet.
44. I love you because you easily give way to my “paglalambing”.
45. I love you because I always want to make you happy even it will mean depriving my own.
46. I love you because I want to see you as one successful man and me the woman behind.
47. I love you because when you're away, I'm living an abnormal life.
48. I love you because as soon as come back, I become alive again.
49. I love you because I dread the day that you will no longer love me.
50. I love you because when we hold hands, it seems that I'm holding on to forever.
51. I love you because when you hug me, it's like no one can harm me.
52. I love you because I fantasize with you about our dream house and car.
53. I love you because the sight of you with another girl will ruin my day.
54. I love you because I freak out when I read a girl's message on your cellphone.
55. I love you because you are always in my prayers.
56. I love you because my happiness lies in you.
57. I love you because I want to be with you 24/7.
58. I love you because when at your house, I'm your princess.
59. I love you because when you're around the flowers are beautiful, the sky is bright, the moon is shining, the day is great.
60. I love you because even when you are too pestered with my 'kakulitan”, you are too afraid to kick me for real.
61. I love you because you can ride on with my immaturity.
62. I love you because you always have the capacity to understand my mood swings.
63. I love you because when I'm with you I'm a woman, vulnerable, weak, clinging to my man.
64. I love you because in our relationship, we can still seek for our individuality.
65. I love you because when we are lying together, I want to put the world on hold.
66. I love you because with your brod and sis, I found new siblings.
67. I love you because I chose to close my eyes with all your shortcomings.
68. I love you because I've forgiven you even before you make a mistake.
69. I love you because even though I'm not your dream girl you still fell for me.
70. I love you because you are my favorite romance novel hero, turned into reality.
71. I love you because I easily get hurt when you say you can't make it on our date.
72. I love you because you massage me great.
73. I love you because you gave me freedom to make choices.
74. I love you because with you I found all the best that life has to offer.
75. I love you because behind the tons of paper works, you're on top of my mind.
76. I love you because you've been a perfect gentleman
77. I love you because in bed you're such a man.
78. I love you because I can write lengthy letters if it's meant for you.
79. I love you because you may see me naked and I'll never mind.
80. I love you because my greatest fear is losing you.
81. I love you because you are my very best friend.
82. I love you because when you're asleep, I just to stare at you and hug you tight so no one would take you away from me.
83. I love you because I always think that a perfect life is with you around, even it will mean living in a nipa hut and working hard to make both ends meet.
84. I love you because when I go to church and lit candles I pray for your dreams first before my own.
85. I love you because I am willing to take the pain if anyone will hurt you.
86. I love you because I want your kisses all the time.
87. I love you because just your one tender touch makes me insane.
88. I love you because it's always been a pleasure hearing you say, “sarap mo talaga rish.”
89. I love you because you just let me sleep on your shoulders on our long and tiring trip to Bicol.
90. I love you because you are one gorgeous, awesomely sexy, and devilishly handsome man.
91. I love you because I get pissed when you don't text back seconds after I sent you a message.
92. I love you because you are my most cherished possession.
93. I love you because even though I'm no sexy girl, you crave for me as if I'm the sexiest.
94. I love you because I've seen your sacrifices in reaching for our dreams.
95. I love you because you are all my dreams come true.
96. I love you because when I see you no longer happy with me, I'm willing to let go, even it will make my heart broke.
97. I love you because I'm so obsessed with the idea of being the mother of your future children.
98. I love you because my biggest dream is to be legally called, your wife.
99. I love you because my heart says so.
100. I love you because I just love loving you.
101. And finally, I love you because it will be too impossible for me to no longer love you.

I had these written on our third anniversary. For the longest time I was searching for that card on his things. Ngayon ko lng nakita. i remember my officemates revising this to their own list...

reminiscing...

14 Aug 2000

Dear diary,

I find my way back home. And there’s this feeling that I don’t belong there anymore. I don’t want to mean, I am stranger now to my family. My point is my views and goals in life seem to be no longer confined in my birthplace. I’m even entertaining the thought of choosing a lifetime partner from a distant place.

Am just too disappointed of not seeing him? With all honesty…NO. I didn’t expect for his presence anyway. He’s trying to enter at the back of my mind but I guess I’m wiser enough to throw his thought away. I’ve got my own life now and I don’t intend to share it with people who once shattered it. I can go on with my life without having occupied by a mere past that would just be forever just a past.

I don’t know but I am having a hard time convincing people around that I’ve already outgrown whatever I felt for him. It seems that I am still very much after him when the whole truth is that, I am not even opening the possibility of being in his arms again. I’ve long accepted the fact that we got our own separate lives.

My ardent suitor was around again. Well, there’s nothing new with that. He’s always been there during occasions but as always I failed to notice his presence. After all, this may sound childish; I never wanted him to be there on the first place. I maybe soft- spoken at one look but when it concerns a man, I can be super assertive. I’ve been that straight forward so as to say if I like a man the first time I saw him. And the moment I laid my eyes on him, there was never that erratic beat of my heart or a mere excitement. Wala lang. right there and then, I know I can never at least like him.

But imagine it’s been four years ago. Why lasts that long? Because I don’t have the nerve to tell a person to get out of my life no matter how irritated I am. I maybe assertive when I like a man but turning somebody down is a different story. I don’t wanna hurt anybody too because I know how it feels.

This may sound so “mababaw”, but I think we girls are like these, when a guy becomes a suitor, we often asks this questions to ourselves, “How would he look like if he will be my groom? Can I imagine myself kneeling before the altar with him beside?” in case it’s a no, then it can never be. And that is exactly what I feel about him. I can never imagine…me? marrying him?

Though it’s still premature to talk about marriage, I often think that my would be boyfriend will definitely be my husband. There are many instances when I begin to wonder why I am so distant to him. He never did anything wrong. In fact, he’s giving me all the favor. But really I just can’t help the feeling of awkwardness, irritability or what, every time he is around. And I would want to believe that it has nothing to do with his physical looks.

I’ve never been judgmental on skin deep qualities and I don’t want to think that I am now. But you see a man may not be necessarily handsome to be liked about. Yet, there must be something in a man’s physical attributes that you must like. And it can be a start. Really physical assets count. I don’t want to be hypocrite about that. But still he has to bear other characteristics to sustain his being likeable. Being handsome wouldn’t be enough. Sometimes a man no matter how handsome would turn out to be a monster if he’s ill- mannered. I guess everything must come in moderation. A man must have a little of every qualities to be just the right guy.

What kind of man would I want for a boyfriend? The basic thing… I must at least be physically attracted to him. Then, he must challenge my intellect into deeper level. Of course, my family must like him because I value and respect their choice. He doesn’t have to be wealthy but stable enough to assure me that my future children will be send to the best school and have a comfortable lifestyle. He must possess the authority to run my life and at the same time the understanding when I want him to succumb to mine.

For sure he will never have a difficulty on my part. No matter what I say that I can be harsh some times, I don’t think I can do it to a person I dearly love. When I fall in love, I become submissive. The man I must marry should really know me that well, that he may feel when I am angry and when I’m hurt. He should not be dumb to think that when I say okay, I mean alright. He should know how to read between the lines.

I don’t mean I’ll keep pretending even to my own husband, but I always got the tendency to hide my feelings to avoid hurting someone else. He has to learn that behind my ever smiling face is a girl who can get mad, who’s easily hurt, and yet deny it.

Few days to go and I’ll be 29. Yah right, just a year more and I’ll be in my thirties (sigh!) This weekend I kept on scanning my diaries, it just feels so good to reminisce that when I was 21, I felt this way. Oh! At 21, mommy was already on state of panic that I haven’t got and never had a boyfriend. In fact, when I came home for the fiesta that time, she told me that my long time suitor had already ask permission to have their “pamamanhikan”. Haler! He wasn’t even my boyfriend. Mommy had thought all along that I like that guy since it’s been ages that he courted me. I would say too that during that age, I’ve also been longing to have a bf. It was like being abnormal seeing my twenty-four co-stewardesses having theirs. Nevertheless, I also went with the flow. Two weeks after I’ve written this, I announced to my family that I have a boyfriend already. It didn’t came as a shock yet, they chorused in saying, “What he’s a Bisaya?” And I told them… “No, he’s not a Bisaya, he’s an Ilonggo.” With no offense meant, I guess we Filipinos had always had these biases over other regions. I guess blame it with what we often saw on TV, that a Bisaya is often portrayed with not so good characters. In defense, I would tell them that, “don’t you know Ilonggos are the sweetest in our country?” Oh, well I had it proven now. Some would joke that Ilonggo men are 99% jealous and only 1 % sweet. Hmm…that’s a fact too but I don’t have resentment over it. I am deeply flattered too over Crissy’s little signs of jealousy that shows his great love for me.

Of course, back then, I am not sure if he had all the qualities I looked for in a man. I fell in love and just trusted my heart. But since day one of our relationship I remain firm with my belief that he will be the man I’ll marry. Even it took him five years to finally pop up the question, “will you marry me?” ( I’m the one who waited for his yes actually)  , I am just so glad that I did made the right decision to love an Ilonggo man who may not have the drop dead gorgeous look, but is the most beautiful creature God blessed me with; who may not be stable enough to give me the best that the world can offer, but working hard to grant me all my dreams; who may not be able to always read what my crazy mind is thinking, but readily shouts to the world how lucky he is to have me as his wife.

Crissy I don’t mind if seloso ka, na hindi ka pa milyonaryo,hehe, I don’t care whatever they has to say, it’s only your love that matters. You know that, ek. Tayo’y magmamahalan hanggang magpakailanman. At promise mo ‘yon ha, na you will still find me desirable even after thirty years. Ako’y sa’yo at ika’y akin lamang…  3sha

Love isn't blind; it just only sees what matters. - William Curry -

Whenever we are in love we lose individual consciousness. We merge with the object of our affection as if we don’t exist. We get a certain kind of high, as if we have taken drugs.

But the problem about falling in love is that it doesn’t lasts, just like a psychedelic drug trip. WE FALL OUT OF LOVE. Our inner individual personalities will soon emerge and we soon lose that ecstatic feeling. Problem is, some fall out of love faster than the others. And that’s when heartache and heartbreak occurs. And that is why it is wise not to completely lose oneself to someone. It is probably okay to let your partner have some sort of influence over you, after all, what boyfriends and girlfriends are for, but not to the point where he or she is already running your life. Remember to keep something for yourself.

NOTHING WRONG SUBMITTING YOURSELF TO YOUR MAN. BUT, BUT ONLY IF HE IS WORTH SUBMITTING TO.

If he gives you space, if he lets you be you, if he lets you follow your dreams, then, give him your submission.

But when he treats you like his possession, like a puppet, like a dummy, like a robot who follows his every command, then he’s not worth your submission, let alone your love!

M. Scott Peck/Road Less Traveled

love

 It is a mystery why we fall in love. It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes. It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes, but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience. Just as life itself is more than the sum of bones and muscles and electrical impulses in then body, love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes its own time so too, the coming of love must be taken as an incomprehensible gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

            Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life – the gift of love will come to you in full flower, and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty. This is the dream we all share. More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on. When this happens to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them, refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely given and a gift that just as freely moves away, when they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving, they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

             They want answers where there are no answers. They want to know what it is wrong in them that make the other person no longer love them, or they try to get their lover to change, thinking that if some small things were different, love would bloom again. They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life together, their love will grow.

             They try anything to give meaning to what has happened. But there is no meaning beyond the love itself, and until they accept its own mysterious ways, they live in a sea of misery.

             You need to know this about love, and to accept it. You need to treat what it brings to you with kindness. 

           If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn’t choose to rest in the other person’s heart.

           If you find someone else in love with you and you don’t love him, feel honored that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage; do not cause pain. How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself and all our hearts feel the same pains and love, even if our lives and ways are different.

          If you fall in love with another, and he falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame. Let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don’t choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away. Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

             There is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather from them. The first blush of new love is filled with overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become as someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

             Remember and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reasons for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always be a mystery. Be glad that came alive for a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again.       

...just one of the many articles my girl friends and I would exchange during our college days. I don't know what was the title. Che gave this one. This consoled me during the time that I went "crazy" over the thing called love.Ahhh... love is really complicated and no words would exactly define just what it is. That's what makes us fools in love. So when love knocks at your heart, just feel it, don't ask questions anymore.