Tomorrow
I'll mark my first month here in my work. The past month went just fine
shall I say. I guess that is what my life all about even then…just
fine. It's a good thing that I never really had so much difficulties and
I felt I am very blessed somehow. And yet, I longed for moments too
that I would say that I am not just fine but indeed happy.
But
well, who can afford to be happy when your better-half is miles away. I
used to tell him that really I can only afford to be happy when he is
within my sight.
Anyway,
I thought of this quotation not particularly referring to my husband as
my own perfect person and questioning his imperfections.
It's just that for the past days, it suckkkss a bit to feel that there are people around me who can't afford to be nice even
if I've not just been nice but extra nice to them.(that's how I
thought!!). Minsan it can just get so tiring winning the heart of
everybody. Bakit kasi may mga tao pa na who can't even smile back when
you've given them your sweetest smile?
But
then, I rather not look answers for that question anymore. Puwede naman
siguro na I'll live my life naman without always trying to please
everybody. This is who I am. And I'm not that bad. If others may feel
something against me, I just let things be that way. After all, this is
my life…and my happiness will never depend on them. As long as I know I
am not stepping on someone else, I have nothing to be guilty about.
Really
I'm just not perfect; I'm no saint….but I have the ability to love
too…If they don't want me to love them with all their imperfections too,
then peaceful co-existence may just be the right thing to do
06 september 2006
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